[His words bring back his worries right back to the surface, and he freezes in in his ministrations before pulling back, hand still curled loosely around the base of his shaft.]
I didn't bring anything.
[He's stupid. So stupid. He knew exactly why he was coming here, but part of him wanted to be able to deny it. Part of him was sure it would be pointless to think they would get to this. The other part tried to tell him he was better than this.
He resents those parts of him now. It would have been better to leave disappointed than to be in the situation they are now.]
I didn't... I don't have condoms. Not here. I have some in my room. They're from the 90s , but it was like recent 90s so they should be okay.
[This isn't sexy. He's not making sense right now and he should have known this would happen. Finishing him off with a blowjob now is just going to feel unsatisfying for both of them, but going back to his room for protection seems awkward. And there's a good chance that somewhere between here and there one of them will think better of this. Right now that's a possibility that scares him.
He knows Connor's been with other men here already, but he also isn't sure where he'd have had chance to get his own protection. It's awkward to broach, and there's no answer here he's going to like, but it's better than avoiding the subject. It's better than missing out on being with him again.]
Do you have anything here? Or we can go back to my room...
no subject
I didn't bring anything.
[He's stupid. So stupid. He knew exactly why he was coming here, but part of him wanted to be able to deny it. Part of him was sure it would be pointless to think they would get to this. The other part tried to tell him he was better than this.
He resents those parts of him now. It would have been better to leave disappointed than to be in the situation they are now.]
I didn't... I don't have condoms. Not here. I have some in my room. They're from the 90s , but it was like recent 90s so they should be okay.
[This isn't sexy. He's not making sense right now and he should have known this would happen. Finishing him off with a blowjob now is just going to feel unsatisfying for both of them, but going back to his room for protection seems awkward. And there's a good chance that somewhere between here and there one of them will think better of this. Right now that's a possibility that scares him.
He knows Connor's been with other men here already, but he also isn't sure where he'd have had chance to get his own protection. It's awkward to broach, and there's no answer here he's going to like, but it's better than avoiding the subject. It's better than missing out on being with him again.]
Do you have anything here? Or we can go back to my room...